Bare Your Soul

-of caring too much

-of giving too much

-of getting attached

-of not letting go if the time comes to do so

-of not being able to move back to NC

-of ruining everything because i’m focused on the future instead of the now

-of not being able to relax and enjoy all the moments

-of expecting too much and accepting too little

Eat, Pray, Love (via liveelaughlovee)

when you first find out that the boy you thought was in love has his first doubts about if this will work

it’s way more fun when he’s telling you how beautiful and great you are. let’s just stick to this part please.

i get this prim and proper-very quiet-don’t want to say anything wrong or mess anything up-trying to be perfect type of disposition. and it’s awf. worst version of myself. hahaha well maybe not the worst but definitely not the most interesting, intriquing, intelligent, cutest version. and the harder i try to think of something exciting to say the more my mind draws into blankness. and probably because so much of my brain time happens to steer itself towards “him” that no other intelligent, fun thoughts are going through my head throughout my days/weeks. so not only do i not have much to offer convos with “him”  i also tend to not have much to offer convos in general. got to snap out of this as i’m boring myself to tears. for reals.

i’m a different person now but i don’t think there’s anyway to fully realize just how different until i move again. exciting!